The Dead Files

Someone was very adamant that I should watch "The Dead Files".  I will be honest, I used to have an interest in these types of shows, but not anymore.  My eyes have been opened, but eyes being opened to the truth do not good unless we speak that truth.  

So I watched her show, and I am telling you the truth, this is a great deception.

Do you not know that the devil deceives by little's and not by leaps and bounds?  He will rarely appear red with horns, but he will appear in this guise of a kind woman trying to help people who have "spirits" in their house.  

In the opening she says, "I speak to dead people, and they speak to me."  

"Do not defile yourselves by turning to mediums or to those who consult the spirits of the dead. I am the LORD your God." Leviticus 19:31.  

The argument is that she is proven right by her investigator again and again.  Of course she is, that is because she is most of the time COMMUNICATING WITH DEMONS!  Demons don't have any problem giving information to her because they know that it will mean the ruining of her salvation and everyone that listens to her also.   As I said in a previous post:  Demons Do Not Carry Identity Cards!  

She has no way of identifying who or what she is speaking with and just because she has this ability does not mean that her perception and interpretation of what she is experiencing is reality.  

This is a description of witches conjuring spirits:  "Witches still go to cross-roads and to heathen burials with their delusive magic and call to the devil; and he comes to them in the likeness of the man that is buried there, as if he arise from death."^[32]

Wake up people and see what is going on!  This woman on this show has had people call witches and warlocks to supposedly remove whatever is there.  

Jesus spoke plainly, "If Satan drives out Satan, he is divided against himself. How then can his kingdom stand?"  Matthew 12:26.   So if the devil knows his kingdom cannot stand if he drives out himself, what is really happening when a witch or a warlock is sent in to remove spirits?  I'll tell you what is happening, a temporary reprieve is granted to the homeowner, only so that the hole can be dug deeper and perhaps something even more sinister and terrifying can be entrenched.   

The demons goal is not to scare you, the demons goal is to cause you to loose hope and curse God.   If you receive a reprieve and then the spirits or activity comes back, even worse than before, what happens?  The people begin to loose hope of ever being free of what is tormenting them.  Because they got a small reprieve they think they should go back on the same path and go to either the same or a different psychic medium, witch, or warlock.  Soon they are so entrenched in this darkness it is almost only by the grace of God that they are shown a way out.

We are the front lines in this battle for souls, pray, fast and be holy as God has commanded us. 

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[32]  Meaney, Audrey L. (1984) "Aelfric and Idolatry"Journal of Religious History 13 (2): 119–35.  source of English translation from Anglo-Saxon.

"Are Their Souls Not Worth $200?"

Some time ago on Facebook, I got a message from (what I thought was...) my Bishop.  He was very kind and ministering to me, asking about my walk, quoting scripture, and even giving me the link to his blog to read.  These messages happened over several days, and I was rather enjoying our little private conversations. 

One day the Bishop asked me to donate to a particular orphanage in Nigeria, and sent me the link to it.  As it was Lent, he related this gift to our Lenten obligation to give to the poor and needy.  He didn't ask for a specific amount, but asked if I could give whatever I could, telling me what the children needed. Bishop C. said this organization was very close to his heart and he was personally asking several parishioners  to donate.  He said the money had to be sent to an individual who ran the orphanage, and then soon, I got an email from that individual begging for money.

As I am the ‘research girl’, I went to the website and checked everything.  I checked out the nonprofit status, searched their domain registry, scoured the internet for information about the Nigerian orphanage.  What I found was rather ambiguous.  The nonprofit status had been revoked,  the domain registry seemed a little odd, and I definitely didn't like sending money to an individual, as I had worked for a nonprofit and I knew that all donations should be made to the organization.  I had a quandary.

I questioned the Bishop, and he re-assured me, but I was still very wary (Not of the Bishop, I thought maybe someone had taken advantage of him).  The only other solution was to talk to my Priest.  I talked to Father J. and voiced my concerns about this website/setup and how I didn't really want to say ‘no’ to the Bishop (He was my Bishop!).  Father J., reassured me that any donation the Bishop would ask was not mandatory and that I could ask for another avenue of donation that I would feel more comfortable with.  After leaving Father, I felt better and thought I would fully trust what the Bishop was telling me.  However, I delayed and delayed sending the money.  

The next time I went to confession, I was going to confess my delay in obedience, but I found I couldn't get the words out to speak of this failing.  I tried twice, but my mouth wouldn't form the words.  I thought that was strange, but decided to trust God and finished with my confession.   Eventually I did send the $ to the "orphanage".  

A few days later, there was a message on Facebook from the real Bishop C.  that someone had made a duplicate Facebook Page of him and had been impersonating him in seeking donations.  He said he had no affiliation with this organization and had reported it to Facebook.  

So it was all a scam!  My hunch was right!  I felt hurt, vulnerable, and I was so angry at the people who had done this! 

I am a very direct person, I wanted to know why God allowed this.  If it is allowed by God then there is always a reason, God wastes nothing.   So I asked God, "Lord, why did we take this trip around the mountain?"  

The answer was, "Are their souls not worth $200?"

"Yes Lord, their souls are worth far more than that, infinitely more."

I get it.  Yes, he could have asked me to pray, but with the theft committed against me I had an emotional investment in the souls that had done this, I was angry.  He wanted me to take that energy of anger that was directed toward them in a negative way and turn it to an offering to the Father FOR the salvation of their souls. 

The Prayer was offered for them, with much hurt in my heart, and as I prayed I found that the hurt in me was healed, and at the end of the Stations that I offered for them, I found I loved them as if they were my own children, and I was begging God for their salvation. 

"You know I Conquered Sin and Death."

During prayer one day, the Lord spoke to me.

"You know I conquered sin and death."  

I don't why I knew it, but I knew this was instruction about my prayer, about how to pray. 

"Yes Lord".  Thinking: What is He trying to tell me?

 Sin and Death...OK...think! 'Sin and Death', like murder, adultery, greed...yes, sin, but what about death?  Unprovided death, car wrecks, suicide.  I was given to understand that because He had conquered sin and death I could pray about this also.

In my prayer it has been people, places, but it was like He was taking me to the next level, honing my prayer skills.  I felt very strongly that at the next Stations of the Cross I was to pray about the evil of Serial Killing.  

I went to the Stations, I asked if I could ask that it be eradicated, the answer was "No."  I then wondered how I was to pray about this.  This isn't a place or a person that you can focus on, it is a "condition" and "evil" if you will.  I thought, "How do I do this?"  

The answer was this.  

I could not ask that the evil or condition that I was to pray about be eradicated, for that will not be until these things are thrown into the pit.  ("Then Death and Hades were thrown into the lake of fire. This is the second death, the lake of fire." Revelation 20:10).  Also, this is a mystery, but even though there is evil in the world, God will work all things to His will, and good.  

But I can pray the Stations and ask the Father to bind the evil condition that is in the World as He wills to bind it.  

If there is great effort of evil in the world, then we in our petition to God should pour all upon the altar to beg for those lost by this evil.  The prayer of one seeking black hearts to be converted is an effort of tears, pleading, much heartbreak, and sweat.  When going against such evils, and asking God to bind them, do not be surprised, because of the great evil associated with it, that after your prayer you will be totally exhausted afterwards.   

"I desire mercy, not sacrifice."  (Matthew 9:13)  However, it is not in sacrificing our flesh and offering it to God by which we are heard, but by the mercy, and love in our heart that desires the lost to be converted.  It is in offering the heart full of love for the lost to the Father by which souls are saved by God.  

As our Lord struggled, and fought to walk the way of the cross, so too we must fight in our prayer with great emotional and sometimes physical effort for those that are now on the path of destruction.

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We are the front lines in the battle for souls! Join the fight!!

All...

I was afraid to write some of the posts I have posted lately.  Part of me didn't want to write them, because of what they could cost me.  Yes, I have written the truth, I will not deny that, ever.  And I was commanded to write.  He said, "You MUST write."  "OK I will." And write I shall.

The truth I tell could cost me dearly.  It has already begun to cost me, but because of my love, I will be obedient.  The Mathematics I love, may be only a dream, a certificate on the wall.   I may never get to use it.  Not my will but yours.  When you know the truth, any pain of any loss is small compared to the pain of the state of souls in the world.

Praying the Stations, and the Holy Rosary has taught me much.  He loves us SO MUCH, how can I express the pain He has let me feel at the loss of one soul into a eternity of separation in Hell.  His Justice will never SUPERSEDE HIS MERCY nor will his Mercy ever supersede His Justice.  This is what is most terrifying, His Justice.  His mercy is infinite! But we can only access it while we are in the flesh!

If one evil man where able to destroy half the souls upon the earth, and then with a true broken heart of contrition for the pain he had caused his loving Holy God and beg forgiveness, the man could still access the mercy of God and be forgiven while in the flesh!  How can we measure the love of God for just ONE SOUL!!  

And what would we give if we truly love God?  If we love Him, we love whom He loves.  What would you deny to one you love with all your heart?  Nothing, no object, thing, money, nor anything of the flesh could you deny Him.  Only love allows us to lay down all out of love for God and the lost.

All for Him....ALL.

"Don't Turn Around."

Another time praying the Stations....

I was at the 6th Station, offering the Station to God, asking the Father that one drop of blood that just one drop of our Lord's precious blood cover what I was praying for.

At this station, I am all the way at the back of the Church, with my back to the Altar.  I hear the Lord say to me, "Don't Turn Around."  

"Uh...Ok."  My eyes widened and I was somewhat afraid.  Then I heard all the banging, and noise behind me, and I felt the demon right at my back, he was about 1 inch from touching my back, and I could feel his presence was very large.(I don't know how I knew this as I didn't turn around, but I did, I understood, he was about 7 feet tall)  He wanted to tear me up.  I was so scared, I trembled, but didn't turn around. I knew the demon couldn't hurt me unless God allowed it.

After about 5 seconds, the noise and everything stopped and there was calm in the church.  I was still under the obedience of His instruction, so I had to ask.  "Lord, may I finish these stations?"  "Yes" was the answer.

Timidly I prayed the Stations until I got to the 10th Station, on this one, I had to turn around.  "Lord, may I turn around?".  "Yes".  The church was empty. 

I finished the rest of the Stations without incident.
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We are our brother's keeper.  As Catholics, as the front line in the battle for souls, we have a responsibility for every non Catholic Christian, every pagan, and every sinner on the planet.  They do not have the weapons that we have to purify their souls with Holy Mass,  Holy Confession, the Holy Rosary and the Stations of the Cross.  We must fight for them.  Every soul is worth whatever we must suffer.  No matter how exhausting the petition before the Father, go again, fight again, beg again, cry before the judgement seat again, but NEVER, NEVER GIVE UP on anyone!

As Catholics we must be pure and holy so we can lay down ALL for our brethren.  Do you understand that you can take Holy Communion for one that will never be able to take Holy Communion? Do you understand how powerful that is, and what it means in a souls walk of salvation?  This is why every Catholic should go to Holy Mass daily, pray the Holy Rosary daily and go to regular Confession.

Catholics ARE born for combat!
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Fearless (Part 2)

NOTE: To understand this posting, you have to read Fearless (Part 1) which you can read...HERE

Sometime after my first experience as written about in Fearless (Part 1), I was again praying the Stations of the Cross.  I get to the fourth Station, the Station where Jesus meets His Mother and I the Lord reminded me of the day when the pews made all that noise and St. Michael and my Guardian Angel showed up.  

Then He said to me, "I want to show you what was coming after you that day." 

I said, "Uh...OK..."

I was transported to a red desert, like the picture above.  I knew there was nothing living in this place and that I was completely alone.  In the distance I could see thousands of red tinged creatures barreling down on me rather quickly.  Some of these creatures resembled very deformed, horrible looking humans, and some where deformed, demons.  They were terrifying to behold.  They had nothing but hatred in their eyes for me, there was no compassion, they wanted to kill me, and at the rate they were coming at me, they would reach me in a few seconds.   There were thousands of them, and was there with no weapons, no defenses and no where to run.  I was toast.  When they reached me, they were going to shred me like lettuce.  I was dead and I knew it.  I was terrified.

The next second I was back in the Church standing before the forth station.  I was trembling in my arms and my legs because I was so scared.  The Lord had to calm me down.  After a few seconds I had gotten my bearings and the Lord gave me a number of how many were coming after me that day in the Church.

Then He said to me, "If it had been all of Hell after you, I would have let St. Michael take care of it."

My first thought was, "One angel, under God's command could hold back all of Hell.  What are we afraid of? We should be completely and totally fearless!"

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Be Fearless in face of any evil, for God IS WITH US!!

We are Catholic! We are the front line in the battle for souls...join the fight!

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St Michael Video!

  

Fearless (Part 1)

So much has happened when I was praying the Stations of the Cross.  The demon has tried everything to scare me off.  He can't.  I won't say I haven't been scared, I have, but I have stood my ground.

On this day, I was praying the Stations of the Cross and begging God for those that were lost.  I was alone in the Church.  I had gotten to the 4th Station - where Jesus meets his Mother.  At that moment, from the back of the Church, every pew in the church sounded like there was someone pounding on it with a large sledgehammer.  It started in the back of the Church and every pew in the Church made the big "BANG!!" noise, and it moved from the back of the Church to the front of the Church in a wave, very fast - took maybe three seconds.

I wasn't afraid, like John Vianney said, you get used to it after awhile.  I know that the demon cannot hurt me unless God allows it.  I wasn't afraid, but then suddenly I felt "reinforcements".  I couldn't see them, but I knew that St. Michael was on my left, and my Guardian Angel was on my right - just behind me.  Whether I wished to continue was up to me.  I wasn't afraid, I knew nothing could touch me, no matter how mad my begging God that souls not fall into hell made the demon.

So I said, "OK, Let's go."  I finished the Stations.*

Be Fearless in face of any evil, for God IS WITH US!!

We are Catholic! We are the front line in the battle for souls...join the fight!

*Oh, and by the way, I checked the pews - there was no damage to them, which considering the noise that was made was astounding. 

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Part 2:  I am shown what was coming after me that day....

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Storm the Gates (Part 3)

Nothing will be impossible for you...

This is another experience while I was praying the Stations of the Cross.

This is what I asked for.

Out of love for all the lost souls that fall into hell constantly, that souls not be lost....

I asked God that the gates of Hell be closed for one hour.

I'm praying the stations, crying and begging God for my request.

I get to the 11th Station....

I hear the Lord say to me....

"By her faith, let it be so."

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The hour is late, and many fall into hell, join me in the pleading to the Father through the Passion of His son, so that God will pull from a just, eternal sentence of hell those that can by saved by His infinite mercy.  

For your discernment.

Storm the Gates (Part 2)

NOTE:  The following of what you are about to read, is for your discernment.  I do not ask nor require anyone's belief.  Also, God did everything in what I am about to tell you, I only asked.  Even in the asking, God gave me the breath to speak it, the will to ask it, so really He did it all.  I am only writing this now because I was told to write, and write I will. 

Praying the Stations.  

A friend of mine at Church showed me how to pray the stations, and I had watched a show that told how powerful the stations where.  So, on my own, after church, I began to pray the Stations of the Cross in front of the Blessed Sacrament after I had prayed my Rosary.  I didn't know what I was going to pray for, but I found I was soon directed.  One day when I was about to start the Stations, I heard the Lord say to me, "Offer them."  I thought, "OK, I can do that." So I started offering each station to the Father for whatever I was praying for.  As I started to pray the Stations this way, as an offering to the Father, some things happened in the process.  It was over many Stations of the Cross offered over time that taught me a lot.  I will talk more about the Stations of the Cross and what I have learned about them, but let me share some basics for now. 

1.  The only way to the Father is the Son, His Cross and His Passion.  

2.  God hurt greatly while His son was going through his suffering, but desires that the       suffering of the Son be offered to Him in order to save souls. 

3. By offering the Stations to the Father, if you seek nothing for yourself but the things that God desires out of the love of your heart for God and for the ones He loves, is more powerful than I can ever describe.

4. If you want to know the Father's heart, offer Him the Stations of His Son.

5.  The Holy Flesh of the Son formed in the womb of the Blessed Virgin is so precious to God the Father, that if a request is made on the 11th Station, if it is considered just in His sight, the Father will hardly deny a request made on this Station because of the Holy Wounds.  

Storming the Gates (A Prayer Answered)

One day after Holy Mass, I was going to pray the Stations. My prayer that day was that the demons that come out of hell and tempt weak souls into mortal sin be prevented from coming to the earth.  Why did I pray this? What led me to this prayer?  Well to be truthful, when you pray the Stations of the Cross you also learn the state of souls in the world, and it is quite frightening how many are on the path to destruction.  (Jesus said this in Scripture).  My heart is for the lost souls and the blackest of hearts, and this is what I beg God for.  

So this day, I was asking that the demons be preventing from coming out of Hell and tempting weak souls into mortal sin.  I began the Stations, and at each Station I was begging God to grant my request with many tears for those that are already in mortal sin.  

I come to the 11th Station. 

I am crying and begging God for my request, because of my love for those that are weak and tempted.  I offer this Station to the Father and I hear our Lord say to me, 

"Send Michael Forth!"

Pray the Stations!


Next Installment:  Another Prayer Request and Answer on the 11th Station.

Storm The Gates! (Part 1)

And so I say to you, you are Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church,^*and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it.  Matthew 16:18.

"...and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it.".  What does this mean? How can a gate prevail?  Wouldn't it be demons that would prevail, but that isn't want our Lord said, He said 'gates'.    

A gate is something to keep something in, or to keep something out.  It can also be used as a passageway.  

From the scripture we know there is more than one gate. ('gates' plural).  There are supposedly 12 gates into heaven the same as the number of apostles, the demon loves to mock God, so their must be more than one gate into hell, but how many?  St. Alphonsus Liguori said there were four principal gates to hell: Hatred, Blasphemy, Theft and Impurity.  I'm betting there are more than this, I think there are somewhere between 6 and 666 gates to hell.  Either way, we know there are gates, and there is more than one.  

So how could 'gates' prevail against God's church?  There are two ways a gate can 'prevail'.  
1). A gate could prevail if the gate would hold fast when it is being assaulted by an enemy force.   We could not breach the gate. 
2). A gate would prevail, if it were opened and there was such a sizable force was on the other side of that gate that would defeat whatever was attacking the gates. 

So lets look at what is on the other side of that gate.  The devil and his demons are there, the fallen angels.  Also the condemned souls are there also.  Granted, the demons are smarter than us, and they know the law of God and the bible, better than any of us can know it.  Also, the demons hate us, because we are made in the image of God and they would do anything, risk any future torture in hell to have us under their power in hell so they could inflict suffering on God's creation.  

God made hell for the devil and his fallen angels, not for man.  All things are under God's power, and the only thing he will not supersede is our free will.  We can choose this kingdom of darkness and suffering for all eternity if we wish, just by choosing to do so by rejecting God by our sins.  So who let the demons out of hell? We did.  Whenever a condemned soul passes into hell, or a mortal sin is committed by man, more demons have a chance to escape and tempt the weak into mortal sin.  By the many sins in the world we have opened the gates of destruction and death that the evil one wishes to give to each one of us.  

The good news is that although we do not have the power to close the gates, through God's church and the sacraments and sacramentals, we can definitely ask God to close them!

Our Lord said that the Gates of Hell will not prevail against His church, whether the gates are opened or closed.  So if all of the demons were sent to attack the Church (which it feels like that sometimes!), Christ's Church, the Catholic Church will always prevail.    He didn't say we wouldn't take a hit, we wouldn't be knocked back or even down temporarily, but we will never be defeated.  (But we can't have even a toenail in the devils camp, we have to be 100% God's.)

"It is in lowliness and humility that the battle is raged...and won." 1

1. See this previous blogpost:  Battling the Demon. 

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Storm the Gates: Part 2: My Experience With Storming The Gates of Hell. 

What is Your God "Relationship Status"?

In this age of social media, we all have to have a status, whether it is what we ate for lunch, where we are, or the old nemesis...the relationship status.  We have all seen it multiple times, and we all have those family members or friends that should have a limit on how many times they are allowed to change their relationship status.  

I've had friends that their relationship status changed in hours...not days.  

So, if we were to post our relationship status with God and His Church...what would it be?

A) Single: I dunno, Atheist?  If you are single, then you are alone and have no relationship with God or His Church..  

B) In a Relationship:  Ok, this is a little murky, in a relationship with whom?  This could be a relationship with Buddha or your dog.  Seems very non committal.  This person seems to be on the fence. 

C) Engaged:  Better, maybe someone who is going to Church, maybe even praying a little, seeking the Lord.  You're on the right path.  

D) Married:  This could be a Religious, or a person completely committed in their relationship to God to the point of death do us part.  The person could also be of the married or single state, but either way, they take their relationship with God to a very serious and holy place, just like a marriage.  

E) It's Complicated:  If it's complicated, I trust you it isn't complicated for God, only for us.  The only reason it could be complicated is if we have had a hurt that has made us turn from God or we have sinned against God, damaging the relationship. (Our side of it only, if we are breathing, He still loves us).  We feel the pain of our sin and turn from God, He never turns from us.  We have to remember, God never has anything to repent for, but we do. 

F) In An Open Relationship:  This is scary.  These are the people that go to Mass but then have an appointment with the psychic down the street.  They go to confession to confess adultery but check their watch after their act of contrition to make sure they aren't late to meet their mistress.  This is NOT an open relationship, it is a closed one.   Closed because of their sin, they have closed their relationship with God, but said yes to someone much more terrifying.  God doesn't allow straddling fences, either you are His or you are the evil one's.  So many people think "no one sees", when God sees not only your action, but the motive of your heart!  Do you really think you can give a 'nod' to God while you do what you want?  You are playing with your eternal judgement.  God is not mocked and the confessional is NOT fire insurance.  

G) Widowed:  This is a religious or other committed 'married' person (see above)  who has died inside to the faith they profess on the outside.  They 'go through the motions' of the Holy Mass, or the Sacraments, or just being a lay person and serving at church, but inside they are dead to any true contrition, repentance or love.  They have allowed legality, or hurts, or desire for control to kill anything that was truly of God inside them.  They held on to these hurts, held them close to their heart until the Sacred Heart was blocked from renewing theirs.  The love no one and continue in sacred rituals through which God still works, but they are dead to.  Pray hard for them. 

H) Separated:  We see this many times in the Church.  Catholics, raised in the faith, perhaps even committed in the faith at some point but for some reason start to fall away either to the world or to Protestant Faiths.   They may still come to Holy Mass occasionally, (Easter and Christmas Catholics!) for special occasions, but they have lost interest because they never really understood what was happening here.  They may give a feigned smile to the Church, but their passing love notes to Martin Luther. 

I) Divorced:  Any Catholic who was raised and once engaged in the faith that goes completely to another faith.  They will speak ill of their Catholic faith and all Catholics, thus widening the gap of any hope for ecumenicism.  They will openly encourage other people in the Catholic church to get 'divorced' also.  These people love to tell how great being 'divorced' is.  Being divorced from the Holy Mass and the most Blessed Sacrament sounds like the worst punishment anyone could suffer.    

J) Civil Union:  This is a tough one, because it is like a marriage, but you marry your same 'type'?  I don't' know....Catholics that become Episcopalians?  To me I have the same reaction, you just want to say... "Why"?

"Lord Guide My Steps!": The Hospital Waiting Room

In prayer I asked the Lord, "Lord guide my steps to where you want me to be and give the words you wish me to say." This is apparently a very powerful prayer as I am about to explain.  

After praying this prayer, I got a strong inclination that I needed to go to the hospital.  So I drove to Clark Memorial and sat at the end of the long hallway and began to pray my Rosary.  (I always take my Our Lady of Fatima Rosary on these missions!) 

As I sat there, I just prayed for whomever crossed my path.  When one Doctor crossed my path and God showed me his heart was atheist. I can't tell you how bad this hurt, my heart broke.

As I was sitting there, "patiently waiting on the Lord." I heard ,“Walk!”  I got up and walked down a hallway in front of me and then got a very strong inclination to go left.  I ended up in the E.R. waiting room.  There was a lady a little older than me sitting there that had her walker over to the side.  She seemed to be having trouble breathing, and as I know something about that too, I asked her if she was having trouble.

She said, "No, it's pain." I said I was sorry to hear that and asked her if I could pray with her.  I did so and I don’t know what I said in my prayer, but she looked like she was about to cry.  

She asked me if I had someone in the hospital, I said, “No.”  

She said, “Why are you here?”.  

“To pray.”  

She was still holding my hand from the prayer, she then began to cry and took my hand and kissed it. .

She told me that years ago she had come within a hairs breadth of becoming a Catholic, and had even gone to confession! Her Father had forbade her to convert and told her if she became Catholic he would have nothing to do with her.  

I told her about the real presence in the Holy Eucharist and my dream of the Eucharist and how I came back to the church. I also gave her a Rosary.  They came for her with a wheelchair and she had to leave.

She asked me to pray for her, and I will, I hope you will too.

I encourage you to pray the above prayer asking God to guide your steps, and in the silence of prayer or the Rosary, hear where you are to go and who you are to speak to. Don't be afraid, He will give you the words, we must supply the will and the courage to act.

The Casino

The Lord had put it on my heart to go to the Casino.  I wondered why I had to actually go to the Casino, so I asked Him, "Lord, why do I have to go?  I can pray for them in front of the Blessed Sacrament!"  

The answer was silence. 

So, in obedience, I filled up my car and went to the Horseshoe Casino. 

I always take what I consider the "big gun" on these missions, which means the blue Our Lady of Fatima Rosary that my husband bought for me before he died.  When I walked in from the parking garage, I had it constantly before me, praying it publicly.  I made it to the Casino and walked through the doorway to where the slot machines where.  

I immediately felt the weight of the sins of the people in the Casino, it was hard to bear, I only wanted out of there.  (I don't know peoples sins per se, just the 'weight' of them, I don't know how else to describe it.)  This isn't a parlor trick, God wastes nothing, and I know if I am given 'information' there is a reason why I know what I know.  Many times I have been places and received nothing, but when God does show me the heart or the sin then it is up to me what to do about it.  Be mindful, no one can do anything for God.  He doesn't need me or my prayer.  So what I am given is for my salvation in that I can purify my heart by showing love for my neighbor by offering my tears and supplications to God for them.  With each act of love I express in this way, my heart is becoming more purified so that I, and hopefully my brethren I pray for, can attain heaven. 

With the pain I was in, I didn't want to stay there.  I went outside, and just outside the door to the casino is a little love seat in front of the stairs.  I thought of sitting there, but then realized I wanted to get as far away from the casino as possible.   I had seen some chairs in the next hallway, I was determined to go out there and sit.  The Lord spoke to me, "No, sit there." (the  love seat).  In obedience, I sat in the love seat and continued praying my Rosary, publicly.  The people going up and down the stairs could see me clearly.  

{Interesting note:  If you pray your Rosary in public, the Catholics are easily determined from the non-Catholics by how they look at the Rosary.  Protestants will look curiously at the Rosary as if it is something they may have seen before, but the Catholic will look at the Rosary and immediately avert his eyes, especially if he or she is where she maybe shouldn't be!}

A young man passed by me and seeing the black Rosary I wear around my neck said, "Nice Rosary!"  and then went into the Casino.  I got up and immediately went after him, because whenever anyone comments on the Rosary I am wearing, I know that is one I am to speak to.  I caught up with him in the center of the Casino.

I took off the black Rosary from my neck and handing it to him, I said, "This is for you."  He looked surprised and then we began to talk, I asked him if he was a Catholic.  He said, he used to be, but didn't go to Mass anymore, he said it was, "Just easier not to."  He then began to speak ill of the Church.  I reminded him gently of the beauty of the Church and what God has given us in the Sacraments and the Holy Mass.  We sat down at a Blackjack table that wasn't being used and I began to tell him my story,  how the Rosary brought me into the Church and about the Real Presence of the Eucharist.   I explained to him what I saw in a dream, of the Holy Eucharist hanging in the air, bright like the sun, with the symbol for the Alpha on the left side and the symbol for the Omega on the right side and how I heard a male voice say, "I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end."  

After about 30 minutes of talking with him he was saying, "I believe you."  

We were about to leave each other and I asked him one last question.  "Tom, I want you to ask God why He sent me to you today."  

He went his way and I was left standing there in the center of the Casino.  I slowly began to look around at all the people around me gambling with all the bells and noise from all the machines.  

As I stood there, it hit me....of all these people, and I was sent to only one.  

As I began to leave the Casino, I was drained and exhausted.  If I was this tired from just feeling the weight of sin, how much more did Jesus hurt going to homes of  the sinners and the tax collectors, and He KNEW their sin...I don't know people's sin, only the depth of it at times. 

As I got in my car to leave, it hit me, "Ok God, now I get it!  This is what Jesus did!  He didn't pray at the Synagogue all the time, He went out to the sinners."  

Then something else hit me.  If I had disobeyed God and sat where I wanted to sit, I would have never seen Tom. 

We must be willing to be courageous and go to where the most lost are and bring them to the Father.  Be brave, you have more protection from God than you know. 

I have a feeling there will be more "excursions".  Please pray for me. 

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(Oh, and just for a lark, take your Rosary and pray it in public, like a Walmart or somewhere else and see what happens! )