God's Wrath.

Today was a rough one.  But I knew it would be, I had been warned ahead of time. 

I went to Holy Mass and as usual, I stay after and pray.  This situation is ideal, because no one sees me.  This is important.  If you are truly seeking the good of another soul in your petition to God, and nothing for yourself, then your petition, ideally, should just be between you and God.  Hidden from the eyes of everyone.  No guile, no hidden agendas, just you and God as you plead to Him for His mercy on those He has chosen you to pray for.  (Oh yeah, you usually don't get to pick whom or what you pray for.) 

I never know when I am going to get my assignment, today it was near the end of the Holy Mass.  "Isis".  Isis:  to bind the great evil that surrounds these men, for they are chained directly to the devil.  My assignment was to beg and plead God to bind this evil, as He sees fit to bind it, but I went a little further.  That is the beauty of God, is that He allows us to push the limits, especially if what we are pushing the boundaries for are for what are the desires of His heart.  

This is what Abraham did, and what Moses did too.  Abraham kept pushing the limit of how many just men would be needed to save Sodom.  Moses was the lawgiver, but many forget how many times he 'entreated' the Lord for not only the Israelite s, but Pharaoh too.  When the spirit of the Lord came upon the tent, the people didn't want to go in, they wanted Moses to go in.  I get that.

I tell you now, Abraham and Moses loved God, but that doesn't mean they weren't terrified also.  God is mercy eternal, God is love eternal, but people forget that God is also justice eternal, and when you are standing on the field of eternity and pleading with a God who's wrath you can feel, this is quite terrifying.   To plead with the one and Holy God, the Eternal is frightening enough, but to plead with a God who's wrath  you can feel is a measure in how much the heart is truly dedicated in seeking the salvation of those whom God's wrath has incurred.   Will you stay? Will you continue?  How committed to the lost are you really?  You want to run, but you don't, you stay, whatever the consequences.  

Someone HAS to go into the tent and plead for the people! 

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Holy Mass was over, the church had cleared out.  I prayed a rosary and knew I had to go to the Stations.  It wasn't so much in words, but it was communicated to me, 

"This is going to be a rough one."  

"Ok...I'm ready."  

My mission was just to ask God to bind the evil and beg His mercy on the souls in Isis, but I went a little further. I have a Mother's heart, and I try to use the heart He has given me well.  I push the boundaries, 

"Lord, give them to me, give them to me as my children." 

Silence.  I begin the Stations.  

My prayer is answered for tears that I shed as I pray the Stations can only come from a Mother for her children.   Every Station I offered to God, I could feel His wrath and anger for the evil that has been done.  How could I counter this?  The one thing I know for sure from praying the stations is this: The will of God is perfect and the justice of God is perfect.  I didn't stop, I kept pleading with God, offering each station, begging for my children.  

 

 

I come to the 12th Station and I was given understanding.  

Those that plead to God for those souls that are lost can turn God's wrath back by offering that His wrath fall upon them instead of those who have incurred that wrath.  This isn't a macho question of who is more of a martyr, this is a question of love.  How much do you really love those you are pleading to God for?  

This frightened me, I didn't understand.  "Lord, if your wrath falls upon me, wouldn't I be in danger of going to Hell?"  The answer was "No."  I was given that those, who with great love in their heart, if they so choose to ask that God's wrath fall upon them, instead of it falling on those whom God's justice requires it, then the soul who has accepted this, out of love only, then that soul is greatly purified for heaven and God's wrath is turned away from those who would otherwise face eternal damnation.    

What Mother wouldn't give everything, for her children and offer to take their place to keep them from harm.  "Lord, Let the wrath fall on me."  

I finished the Stations and went to my normal pew.  I was drained and exhausted.  I had no prayer left in me.  I went to my car and was so exhausted I had to put the seat back and take a little nap before leaving.

May God give me the strength to take up the fight again.

All...

I was afraid to write some of the posts I have posted lately.  Part of me didn't want to write them, because of what they could cost me.  Yes, I have written the truth, I will not deny that, ever.  And I was commanded to write.  He said, "You MUST write."  "OK I will." And write I shall.

The truth I tell could cost me dearly.  It has already begun to cost me, but because of my love, I will be obedient.  The Mathematics I love, may be only a dream, a certificate on the wall.   I may never get to use it.  Not my will but yours.  When you know the truth, any pain of any loss is small compared to the pain of the state of souls in the world.

Praying the Stations, and the Holy Rosary has taught me much.  He loves us SO MUCH, how can I express the pain He has let me feel at the loss of one soul into a eternity of separation in Hell.  His Justice will never SUPERSEDE HIS MERCY nor will his Mercy ever supersede His Justice.  This is what is most terrifying, His Justice.  His mercy is infinite! But we can only access it while we are in the flesh!

If one evil man where able to destroy half the souls upon the earth, and then with a true broken heart of contrition for the pain he had caused his loving Holy God and beg forgiveness, the man could still access the mercy of God and be forgiven while in the flesh!  How can we measure the love of God for just ONE SOUL!!  

And what would we give if we truly love God?  If we love Him, we love whom He loves.  What would you deny to one you love with all your heart?  Nothing, no object, thing, money, nor anything of the flesh could you deny Him.  Only love allows us to lay down all out of love for God and the lost.

All for Him....ALL.

War

I am at war.  Although I may not look like it, trust me I am in a great war that never ceases around me.  I fight a battle everyday for the souls in purgatory and the lost souls that fall into hell everyday.  The loss of souls is one of the greatest tragedies in the universe.  Because God's justice is perfect, lost souls are in hell of their own volition.  There is nothing more heartbreaking to realize that this sentence is for all time.  Those that are falling into hell right now will still be suffering there 1 million years from now, and 100,000 x 100,000 million years and so on..

Stepping on the battlefield for lost souls  is one of the most treacherous things you can do in relation to the status of your own salvation.  The reason for this is that you can't do anything for God.  You aren't doing God any favors by your prayers, even if 1000 souls where to be released from Purgatory with your prayer, you didn't do it, God did.   You just asked that the battle be waged, God is the one that did everything.  But in the warriors walk you are at constant risk of the same pride of the demon, thinking that what you may do in prayer is 'needed' by God.  I assure you, it is not.  Your prayer and supplication is for your brethren and for your advancement in holiness while on the earth.  Even your personal holiness should not be for you.  

When we seek to be holy or a saint, that is still seeking something for ourselves, but we should seek to be holy so that we can go before God and plead for others who are lost.  The motivation for this should always be out of love for God and love for others.  One of the greatest prayers that you can say is "Not for me Lord, not for me."  Nor should you seek that anyone see the war you are engaged in.  This is a silent work done alone just between you and God for others.  

Even in the gifts God gives sometimes we should seek less.  Don't seek to know the result of your prayer because if you knew what God was doing, then again you are subject to pride.  It is by the lack of knowledge that we attain great faith.  Sometimes even the gifts God gives we should seek less of them.  Don't seek visions and dreams, but ask God to give you less of these, for they too can be a source of pride.  By many graces we think we are special before God and rise ourselves above others when we should be a servant to all.  Ask God only to give you enough to keep you motivated in prayer. 

Engaging in the battle for souls is one of the greatest purification process you can ever partake of.   For if you pray for a lost soul with great love without seeking recompense for yourself, God will open His heart to you and He will hear your prayers.  This is when the demon's harvest of souls is greatly decimated. So much so that he will have no reason to hide from you.  Many times the evil one has tried to scare me from my work with different physical manifestations and has expressed great anger while I was engaged in prayer.  

Once in Saint Michael Catholic Church I was praying in front of the Blessed Sacrament and I clearly heard hooves stomping on the beams above me.  I ran out of the church.  A few days later when I came back, again I was praying and the Lord said to me, "Where I am you are not to run."  I've been scared a couple of times since, but I didn't run, because He told me not to.   

Courage in face of this hidden malice is something that can only come from God.  God is the one that gives courage, for fear is not of Him.  If we strive after this courage for the cause of the lost, God will give it to us.  

 Slowly as you continue to take the battlefield more and more, you realize how powerless the demon is in the face of God.   That doesn't mean he won't continue in his efforts, but you are affected less and less.  I think Saint John Vianney spoke of almost getting used to it, this is because you know that unless God allows it, the demon cannot hurt you.  

The Battlefield

First He let's you know the battle before you, how dire the situation really is.  Many now are on the path of destruction.  The scope of the problem is overwhelming.  Yet as one created in the image of God we have the great gift of intervention for our brethren.  

Does a soldier take the battlefield assured of 100% health at the end of the battle?  No.  Warriors know that the possibility of wounds or even death are a possibility.  But those who step on the battlefield take the risk because the victory is worth all that we must suffer to attain it.  

Even to our last breath and our last drop of blood we must fight for the lost...their souls are worth it. 
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“Do not be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, who is great and awesome, and fight for your kin, your sons, your daughters, your wives, and your homes.” Nehemiah 4:14

Mercy: Only While We Live

God's Justice.  As God is complete in all that He is, we are not able to take away or add to His measure.  Since this is so, then God is whole. If God is perfect then His attributes must also be perfect.  God is one, God is the divine Trinity, the three divine persons in one God.  God is pure, and His purity must be perfect, with nothing lacking.  God is just, and His justice must also be perfect.  So God is pure, just and perfect.  As a result, if God's justice is perfect then His justice must not allow any one who is impure, vile or sinful into his presence, for this would not be just and it would be torture for the soul stained by sin to behold the beatific vision of God.  

God is also mercy, and His mercy, because He is timeless is for all time God's mercy must also be infinite.  The fact of God's infinite mercy has lead souls down the path to the conclusion that no matter what they do, God's mercy is infinite and God will not allow them to go to Hell.  Even Martin Luther fell down this path saying, "Be a sinner and sin boldly."... "No sin can separate us from Him, even if we were to kill or commit adultery thousands of times each day." (from the Letters of Martin Luther)  

Not so.  

Read this very carefully... God is not bound by time has infinite mercy, which means that He can show mercy for all eternity to His children that live and breathe on the earth.   He can show mercy 10,000 years from now if there are souls living on the earth.  HOWEVER, we, as creatures bound by time can only be recipients of that mercy in relation to our judgement WHILE WE ARE ALIVE IN THE FLESH.   Two hundred years from now we will not have access to the mercy of God that is reserved for the living, for we will not be alive.  

When we die, then eternity seals the soul and it is presented to God for judgement.  Once the flesh is dead there is no more chances for God's infinite mercy, there is only the judgement.    The soul is before the throne and the book of that souls life is opened.  All that that soul said, did, and thought in its life upon the earth are presented to God.   As a result souls are either allowed into heaven, purgatory or hell, AFTER THEIR JUDGEMENT. While you are in the presence of the perfect justice of God, there will be no argument with God, you will know that whatever sentence you receive it will be the correct one.  

So heaven, the beatific vision of God is forever, for God is a God of life and He cannot take back the gift of life.  The flesh is a temporary life, the soul is the eternal life.    And in the flesh of our Lord Jesus Christ, His flesh was given as an oblation to the Father for our sins, yet because Jesus was God, the life He gave for us matched the gift of the oblation to the Father - infinite. Infinite life with Him, or without him. 

So where you are in the next life is most definitely determined by what you do in this one, and where you shall be shall be either a pleasure or a torment, for all time.   If we knew how scary the judgement of God is upon our souls, we would spend our entire lives working out our salvation in the fear and trembling that Paul speaks of. 

I will tell you the truth.  One day I was praying the Stations of the Cross, I was offering them for the souls in Purgatory.  The Holy Souls were so happy to have me do this, I could hear them say, "Someone is going to offer the Stations for us!"  As I prayed the stations, I came to Station 13, where He was taken down from the cross.  I always ask for the blood and water that came from His side to cover whatever I am praying for at this station.   So I asked the Lord to let the blood and water from His side cover the souls in Purgatory.  The Lord stopped me and said, "No, that is only for the living." 

We are all on the road to death and the judgement and God's mercy is available to us ONLY while we have breath.  Please take advantage of the mercy of God.  The sixth promise of those that pray the Holy Rosary is "....He will not experience the anger of God nor will he perish by an unprovided death*...." So Please, pray the Holy Rosary, examine your conscience and I can't say it enough..."Go to Holy Confession!" 

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*Unprovided death= death either sudden or otherwise that the soul has not properly prepared to meet God by reconciling with God and as a result is possibly in danger of eternal fire.