"You Can't Fight Demons With A Sink Full Of Dirty Dishes."

Learning how to be an Intercessor was a long road, and God has taught me a lot.  

One of the things that He taught me is how Pride is a common and rampant virus infecting almost all believers.  When someone receives "information" from God, the Pride Virus kicks in and the person feels that they are "Chosen", usually leading that soul to rebellion.

Pride ALWAYS leads to rebellion. 

Any Exorcist will tell you that "Authority is a thing." (Fr. Ripperger) That authority is through the Catholic Church where fighting the demonic is most effective.  

That's great, but what about us women?  We cannot be Priests because that authority rests with the men.  So how do we play our part?  

The feminists have it all wrong.  Women are not delegated to a lower position, but raised to a great one.  We are not MEANT to be Priests, we are meant to be something awesome.  

A woman holds something inside of her that God will hardly deny, a Mother's heart.  What would you do if you knew that you can get to a place where God hears all your prayers and will not deny what you ask of Him?  Pretty powerful huh.  You don't get to ask for a new car, that's not how it works.  

A woman in a state of grace with her Mother's heart who pleads for her children aligned with the will of God will NOT be denied her prayers.  

But what does that mean to be in a state of grace?  Confessed, repented, and submitting to the authority to which God has placed you in this state of your life.  Yes, submitting to authority.  Authority of the Church and of those that God has placed over you.  This can be work, but it also means at home. When I was married, I was under the authority of my husband, now a widow, I live with my Father and am under his authority.  What I speak of is Godly authority, this is not about being a slave to another.  I am to be led in prayer by those in my home who are in authority over me.  When I submit to this Godly submission I am cancelling the rebellion of Eve when God looks at me through this submission.  Submitting to authority and pride are incompatible.

"Children, be obedient to your parents in all things, for this is well-pleasing to the Lord." Colossians 3:20

Can ones prayers be effective before God without being pleasing to Him?

Submitting to the authority of the Church and of my spiritual headship at home is a requirement for me to be an intercessor for another.  

By submitting to God's authority in my life also means doing the best I can where HE has placed me in service to others.  

If I were to lead others to this life of being an intercessor one of the first things I would ask them is to see their house.  Their house? Why?!  Because the demon is the master of chaos.  For you to intercede for others, you must have your house in order, and not just in the matters of spirituality and authority.  

The demon's watch us constantly.  When we intercede for another, the devil, not knowing our prayers, (he can't read our mind) will try to lessen or stop our prayers by presenting to God how we lead our lives.  It doesn't work, God judges the heart, which the devil cannot see.  But that doesn't mean he isn't going to try, especially if by your prayers God has done the devil significant damage.

To be an intercessor, stay confessed, stay close to the Catholic Church, strive to do penance and prayer as is fitting in your state in life, submit to authority and keep your house as best you can. (Spotless not required!)

A mother's heart has the significant grace of going beyond it's boundaries of just her own family when prayers through that heart are motivated by love of God and the other.  Eve was called the Mother of the living.  The Virgin Mary was the Mother of those living in Christ.  Our Mother.  Through her heart grace washes the souls of the earth with a Mother's love for us and prayer to her Son that we be brought safely to Him.  

Mary's heart is the Immaculate heart pleading for mercy.  Jesus heart is the heart of love and sacrifice.  The Sacred Heart was moved when Jesus carrying His cross was encountered by His Mother who said to Him, "Lord, have mercy."  Through all she was suffering in her Mother's heart for her Son, she asked Him for us.  He could deny her nothing. 

  

The touch of her Immaculate heart to His at this moment proved her worthy for what was to come next.  At the Cross, Jesus gave all of us to her.  "Woman, behold your son."

A woman who pleads as a Mother to God for the good of another, asking God to give her souls as her very own children can not only change her local parish, she can touch God's heart for whole nations.  

We, with our Mother's hearts, can join with our Immaculate Mother's heart to reach the Sacred heart.  God will not deny a Mother's heart bent on the mercy of God for the other.  

But before we seek God's mercy for another, we ourselves have to be aligned in all aspects of our life to God and His will as best we can.   

Trust me, it is very true. "You Can't Fight Demons With A Sink Full Of Dirty Dishes."

So, go to confession, go to Holy Mass, do penance and get your house in order.  Souls valuable to God are falling in to hell at this very moment.  Join the fight. 

The Battlefield

A View from My Battlefield

No warrior ever unsheathed their sword to wreak havoc on the enemy in the comfort of their living room.  Warriors need a battlefield. 

Warriors, are called to go out, and if in a state of grace, to plead to the Holy God for those around them.   Being a Warrior can be lonely, but if you need companionship, take a companion, but some are called to fight alone.   I think I am the later, I fight alone.  I go out and I go to where the sinners are and I plead to God for them.    This is NOT an easy thing to do.  When I go to these places, sometimes I can feel the weight of the sins around me.  This is a very painful experience and one you instinctively want to run from.   I am shielded from the knowledge of what someone’s sin is because it serves no purpose for me to have this knowledge.  I am not a Priest and no woman ever can be.  God is extremely efficient and He works on a “need to know” basis.  

About Mystical Knowledge:  

1.  God has perfect knowledge of all things,  before we were in existence, He knew the knowledge He would give and when.  

2.  All knowledge is given for a purpose, God wastes NOTHING.  

3.  God requires some effort on the Warriors part to discern the meaning of the knowledge and what the Warrior is to do with it.   God will use the gifts He has already given you, (Example: an analytical mind) to process and find a way to use the knowledge given for HIS purposes.  You will then have a choice to act on this knowledge or not, there is no obligation, our free will is always in effect.  

4.  The knowledge given does in no way enhance the one who has received it.  

5.  The Warrior in a purified state pleading to God for their brother or sister becomes a 'pass through point' from which the Grace of God can work through them for others in proportion to the love contained in their heart for God and their neighbor.  

6. The final stage of mystical knowledge is the mystery of suffering and the marriage of suffering and purification.    The warrior uses this knowledge and accepts suffering given from one greater than themselves for the good of others.

7.  A greater proportion of mystical knowledge is given to the soul that is hidden and desires no acclaim in this world.  Being hidden for love of God and those He loves always enhances communication between God and man.  

Next...LOCATION OF BATTLEFIELD and Weapons to bring!

Connecting to Heaven

As a Mathematician I have a great hunger for knowledge.  I seek knowledge in Mathematics like a bulldog would, I dig in, latch on, and don't let go until I have what I want.  Because this is the method I have used to acquire knowledge, it was no surprise that I would employ these same techniques when it came to seeking after God.    

It is written, "there is no one who seeks God", well I did.  I went after God, and sought Him diligently and by God's grace I will tell what I found.  

1.  God exists, and is very real and is an eternally Holy, and is eternally just.   Although there will be no direct scientific proof of Him, because He is the author of creation and is not bound to be subject to the criteria of proof required to prove 'existence' .  God does give evidence of Him being the author of all life and creation, but men push it away as a natural occurrence, a fluke or a coincidence.  There is no such thing.  Natural occurrence, fluke or coincidence are only aspects of the mystery of "God Allowing."  God is  "I Am"....He IS existence.    

Human beings experience 'reality' in relation to time and sensation, God is not bound to these constraints.  As we were created by an Eternal God, the eternity that is our destiny was placed in our hearts and despite all our limitations in a fleshly state, we can rise above the groans and demands of the flesh and seek the truth of an Eternal existence that is not waiting for us when we die, but that we are a part of right now. 

If we are in Eternity right now, then our thoughts, actions, and words will have eternal consequences.  Whatever we say, do, or think, God remembers for all eternity, and if our actions are sinful and not repented of, they may require an eternal consequence.  Do not think that because you flesh lives a short life, that you can do what you please and tread on the Honor of God for your own desires.  For some will come to their deathbed in such a horrible state of mortal sin, that only the hands of a Priest giving the Anointing of the Sick can turn God's wrath from their eternal damnation. 

2.  As God loves those He has given life, God has given his creation a means of piercing the veil that separates life from death and perceiving, at least in part, the eternal reality that awaits those that will diligently seek Him.   Yes, we can perceive Heaven, even while we are in the flesh.

3.  The most powerful methods given to man to gain access to the heavenly realm are:
      i) The Holy Mass with frequent Holy Communion
      ii) The Holy Rosary 
      iii) Confession and Penance
      iv) Holy Scriptures 

The two most 'portable' methods of these being the Holy Rosary and Holy Scriptures.  

The Holy Rosary is the best portable method of purification of a soul in order to gain access to the Heavenly Realm, as God allows.  We can have access to praying a Rosary when reading scriptures would not be feasible.  

4.  Gaining access to heaven isn't about what you do, or how many times it is done, but about what your heart does.  There is no list of how many prayers it takes to get into heaven.  St. Michael will not be looking at your excel spreadsheet of prayers to see if they were completed, but he will take you heart and weigh it in it's love for others.   How much did you truly love and pour yourself out for others, even to your last breath.    In one scale, will be your heart, in the other will be the Cross of our Lord.  Your heart will be weighed against the Passion of our Lord, and His sacrifice.   If you understood this, you would be terrified.

5.  The Holy Rosary is for purification and petition, but the Holy Mass is where the Heaven's are first opened for us.  This was not something that happened instantly, I had been a great sinner, and had to go through several years of purification before I attained this perception, as God wills it.  But I can tell you, when the Heaven's Open during the Holy Mass, we have access to the Throne of God for our petitions for others.  (You only get to this level, if you have truly humbled yourself before God, sought nothing for self, and petition God for the good of another, seeking no acclaim or attention.)  

I have seen the Saints in heaven observing the Holy Mass being celebrated on Earth, and how happy they are!  When you perceive God in this way, you are given what a victory the Holy Mass is on the Earth and how it was a gift from God to man.  Not just Catholics, but every soul on the Earth benefits from each and every Holy Mass that is said, and many souls in Purgatory are released to the beatific vision of God. 

6.  As God allows, depending on the state of your heart and soul to God, He may allow you access to the Throne of God for your petitions outside of the Holy Mass.  Yes, God can do that, and I didn't even realize I was seeking this connection outside of Holy Mass until God showed me what I was doing.  

We in the flesh are very limited, so God gives us each and every person that we encounter in our lives, no matter how insignificant that encounter.   Your children and family are a gift from God, but also is the woman that cut you off in traffic.  God gave her to YOU and He showed you that she is in a potentially dangerous state, and made sure you didn't forget her.  (Wouldn't you come home and complain about being cut off!  You remembered her!!)  There are NO coincidences, and no accidents.  

After encountering an older gentleman that God gave to me for prayer,  I looked up to heaven and petitioned God for this soul as if I was with him before his Judgement.  Instead of just praying for the soul, I go the extra mile and seek to be present at the souls Judgement and petition God for them.   I seek the Throne of God, the Judgement seat of Christ, and before the Cross, I kneel with this soul and petition God to be merciful for his or her sins.  

If the man is still alive, how can I do this? Because we are bound by time, God is not.  God is ever present in a state of eternal "now", with all things before Him constantly with an eternal and perfect knowledge whether the knowledge is from the past or the future.    This perfect knowledge in eternity in no way hinders man's free will to direct his future even though that future is already known by an eternal, loving and perfectly just God.   Even though this man is still living, God is in some sense of eternity presiding at this man's judgement, and He was given to me to be one that pleads for him before the Throne of God.  I have a level of faith that knows that God, if He wills, can allow me to plead at this man's Judgement even though this man is yet still in the flesh.  

If we are going to seek after God we must realize that because of our sinful nature, He is not like us, but as He wills, we can become more like Him.  We must seek to understand the truth of God's reality and seek to perceive this reality to attain the salvation of others.  

One of the best ways to do this is also to constantly remind God, "Nothing is impossible to you, if you will it."  But know God is not mocked, He knows even the deepest secrets of your hearts, so if your intention is not pure, you will attain nothing without a heart directed for others that allows you to be properly dressed for the wedding feast.

God desires ALL  to seek Him.  The Saints have all had this access to the Throne of God, and the one's that did most obviously, where very devoted to the most Holy Rosary.

GO AFTER HIM...and Godspeed. 

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St. Gemma praying, looking to Heaven.

St. Gemma's prayer as a child was “Holy Virgin, make me a Saint.” During this time she often said the whole fifteen decades of the Rosary on her knees in the evening after her return from school and she also began to use penances and to rise in the night to pray. - 

Heaven and Battlefield (Part II)

The Consecration: (The Battle Begins) 

"This is my body..."

This is when I am usually attacked.  When I know the consecration is near, I prepare myself, steel myself, get ready.   I do not know exactly why this is when I am attacked, but I think it is because I know what is coming and how to effectively utilize the gift God has given us in the Holy Mass for others. 

The Catholic at the Holy Mass is for the other.  We should rarely be there for ourselves, but we should be there for the rest of the world that is NOT there.   

The demons do not want you to fully understand what is really happening in the Holy Mass, and will do everything in their power to distract you from the work that God is doing on the Earth. 

"This is my blood..."

This is hard to explain but I will try.  This is truly Jesus's blood now present in the cup, although we may perceive it differently, we may perceive it as wine.    

You see, everything Jesus said was true, and the Holy Crucifixion of our Lord is not a moment in time that is static.  How can one that is eternal and flesh, leave a moment in time in the past, He cannot.  Jesus is God.  The Crucifixion is not in the past, it is happening right now.    The Chalice of His precious blood is raised above the altar at the moment that the chalice of the cross is raised up for our salvation.  His blood is eternal, and the blood that flows from the Cross, is the same blood that we take at Holy Mass.  They are the same. Although He died once, for all, somehow He is still pouring Himself out for us, even now, on the Altar of the Holy Mass.  The crucifixion is made 'present', but not in a way that surpasses what Jesus did at Calvary. 

The Priest is a singularity at this moment for the whole world.  For if the Priest is Holy and pours himself out for others, the greater the number of souls that are brought to salvation, not just here, but among all the peoples of the Earth.  

God needs nothing, so He does not need man, but by His word He created and Honors the Priesthood. Because His word is perfect, He will NEVER go back on His word, so the Priesthood will exist until the end of time.  As a result, we will always have the Holy Mass, even if it must be a hidden one.  

The Holy Mass offered in hiding in fear of those who wish to destroy it, can still affect the whole world, and may a Priest always remember what he does, not for himself, not even for just those present, but for the whole world. 

The offering at the Holy Mass is always accepted by God at the hands of the Priest, no matter the state of the Priest's soul.  (This does not give the Priest an 'out' to be in sin, because if God honors the Priesthood for all time, those that celebrate this holy mystery will be called to give an account to God of their sins, especially if they had the opportunity to resolve their sinfulness but did not.  But that is another blog post.)  

God deems to take this offering of the Priest and use it for the salvation of souls.  The Holy Mass is the best method for a Priest to become holy, and become a Saint.  

The heavens are fully opened, Jesus is truly present on the altar.  

Memorial Acclamation:
Priest:  Let us proclaim the mystery of faith:

All:  A - Christ has died, Christ is risen, Christ will come again.
    or B - Dying you destroyed our death, rising you restored our life. Lord Jesus, come in glory.
    or C - When we eat this bread and drink this cup, we proclaim your death, Lord Jesus, until you come in glory.
    or D - Lord, by your cross and resurrection, you have set us free. You are the Savior of the World.

Notice the Cross, or Jesus' death in each one of them.  OK, we are definitely standing on Calvary now.

With love I see Him on the Cross, and I think, "Where is my Calvary?"  "Where am I to be poured out for others?" Our Calvary is every day, every small suffering that we meet, and sometimes, as God wills, even greater suffering at the end.  For when we suffer in our death, it is either for our purification so that we may attain heaven, or so that we may offer ourselves, and our suffering for others.

Where can I die to self and lay it down for someone else.  Attendance at every Holy Mass strengthens us for our own Calvary yet to come, whether great or small.
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Coming soon:  Heaven and Battlefield (Part III): The Battle of Tears.

Heaven and Battlefield (Part I)

The other day, a friend of mine at OLPH came up to me and said, "I just wanted to say that at Mass, you just light up!  You glow. It makes my heart leap to see you.  I don't know if you know, but I wanted to tell you."   My first thought was, I don't want her looking at me!  I in no way want to be a distraction from what is REALLY happening at Holy Mass.  

Do I know? Yes, in a way I do.  

After Holy Mass, I prayed and sought an answer of the Lord.  I know how important the Holy Mass is for not just those in attendance but for the whole world, and I in no way want to be a stumbling block from those coming to this gift from God.  

"Lord, I don't want to be a distraction, I don't want people looking at me.  What do you want me to do, I can go somewhere else to Mass, (then I thought, it's going to happen their too!) or I can sit in the back or I can cover my face."  At that last suggestion I could feel that Lord did not want that...at all.  I almost felt like I had made him angry at that suggestion.  

Then He spoke to me and said, "You are a witness to what is truly happening at the Mass."  "Ok," I thought, "If I'm a witness, then I'm going to witness and explain everything I experience in the Holy Mass."  

The Holy Mass is both Heaven and Battlefield. 

The Sign of the Cross.
Before Holy Mass begins, I have said my act of contrition (always! I'm a sinner, and I fail Him daily), but when we begin with the Sign of the Cross it feels like I am being embraced by God.  The sign of the Cross centers me to what has begun, and it's seriousness.

The Gloria
The Holy Mass is the moment on the Earth when we can access Heaven and worship God without the distractions of the world.   When we pray or sing the Gloria, I'm praying it directly to God because I love Him.  The love in my heart for Him makes me happy, because I feel His return of this love.  I do not do this expecting anything, but pour this prayer to Him just for the sake of love for Him.   

I love my OLPH family, but at this moment, it's all about HIM, and my eyes are on heaven.
"Glory to God in the highest..."

Heaven! feeling the Glory of God in this prayer is Heaven!  In this prayer is access to heaven and victory! "....You Who take away the sins of the world, receive our prayer. You Who sit at the right hand of the Father, have mercy on us. For you alone are holy. You alone are the Lord. You alone, O Jesus Christ, are most high. Together with the Holy Spirit in the glory of God the Father. Amen"

Victory!  Christ at the right hand of the Father is our Victory!!

My smile is because I have seen the victory of the Lord.  No matter the sin, the evil in the world, God is victorious. The victory is great and eternal, and we can experience the victory now in the prayers of the Holy Mass.  

Liturgy of the Word
How can I describe this.  My heart melts by His word. Every words is a whisper of love, that increases my love for Him.    In the Word of God, we are spoken to not only about our own lives, but about the lives of others.  Where is God speaking to me and where is speaking to me about others?  Our lives should be about others, and everything God gives us is either about our purification, salvation, or the salvation of others.  

We cannot seek the salvation of others until we ourselves are purified and in a state of grace. That is the "getting the beam out of our eye first."

Psalms:  When the Psalms are sung, it can be such joy, or so touching that the tears have to flow.  

Gospel:  The Gospel...Alleluia! I get to hear HIS words!

Prayer over the Gifts
The Heavens are opening more, the Priest is becoming our connection to Heaven.  Father is standing in the breach between heaven and Earth for us, bringing us Heaven.  The way a Priest can be our conduit to heaven is if he has offered himself to God for us.  The Priest becomes an oblation for you, and you do not know it. 

Eucharistic Prayer
"Lift up your hearts!"  My heart is His.  "Lord, I am dust, take this heart of dust that loves you so.  Not just for me but for my children, those I have now, and those you will give me."  
And so, with Angels and Archangels, 
with Thrones and Dominions,
and with all the hosts and Powers of heaven,
we sing the hymn of your glory, 
as without end we acclaim:

The heavens are open, we have access to the throne of God! If we have eyes of purity, in our heart we see the throngs of angels and Saints around the throne, giving praise for all eternity!  God will always honor the Priesthood, and no matter the state of the Priest, the heavens will open, God will come down from heaven to be among us, and we have access to the Throne of God for Praise as the Saints do!   This IS HEAVEN ON EARTH!

Holy, Holy (Sanctus) 
Holy, holy, holy Lord, God of power and might,
Heaven and earth are full of your glory.
Hosanna in the highest.
Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord.

Hosanna in the highest.

At this moment, I have great joy, because we should feel how those felt who welcomed the Lord into Jerusalem on Palm Sunday.  We have the joy of Palm Sunday at every Holy Mass. Hosanna! We are the Holy City, and Jesus is coming to us!

The Rest of the Holy Mass in Heaven and Battlefield (Part II) 

St. Stephen and the Holy Mass

A man that takes the role of a Deacon is showing by his submission, sacrifice and love to extol all the gifts that are given to him by God.    Donning vestments, whether Priest or Deacon is the ultimate witness of manliness. 

It is no coincidence that the first Christian Martyr was a Deacon.  By God’s grace, through a Deacon, God let open the heavens to let St. Stephen see the rewards of all those who die for the faith.  The grace of martyrdom is a joy of the will of God being fulfilled, for if we love God, we love Him and those He loves to our last breath and our last drop of blood. 

Those that are chosen for this gift are very few, and it is only by the love in their heart for others that they are chosen.  The martyr is prepared for death by the knowledge that their blood feeds the Church, and by the shedding of their blood, within God's will, they are given the greatest gift while still in the flesh; the assurance of heaven.

Is there any suffering that we cannot endure if we know we shall have heaven for all eternity?  St. Stephen saw what he most desired, and it’s fulfillment is so great that anything he would suffer caused him no ill will to those who were killing him, and by asking mercy he was praying that they should be in the same heaven as he was about to attain.   He lived a life poured out for others with no thought for himself.

St. Stephen is the first witness of what happens at each and every Holy Mass.  At each Holy Mass, the heavens open and we have access to the throne of God, just what St. Stephen's saw.  He, saw Jesus in the face, we see Jesus in the Holy Eucharist.  During Mass we can plead before God's throne for mercy for ourselves and for our brethren, whether they can see what we see or not.  St Stephen saw the heavens open and saw the judgement seat of God and pleaded for those killing him.  We have access to the judgement seat of God when the Body and Blood of Jesus is offered to the Father, and we too should plead for those around us.    

St. Stephen saw the wounds of our Lord in his hands as he looked into heaven, and was given fortification to accept the will of the Father.  In the wounds of Christ are the perfection desired of every martyr of the Catholic Church, for in them is the perfect will of God.  

Deacon Jeff Powell, and Father Eric Johnson, OLPH

The Holy Mass is truly heaven on Earth!  How I wish people understood what this truly is.   What would you give to attain heaven?  What would you lay down to see God in the face?  The Catholic has the gift of heaven at every Holy Mass.  For at each Mass the angels and the Saints are in attendance, happy that such a grace is given to us.    But we with our dim eyes do not see what is really happening.  If we truly understood how the heavens open and how the throne of God is available to us at each and every Holy Mass, we would be willing to give up everything we have to go to just one.  

What joy is to go to Holy Mass, the prelude of heaven!

And if you love others, knowing the heavens are open to you as they are at each Holy Mass, what would you plead before the throne of God for those around you?  If you love as the Sacred Heart loves, there is no part of your heart that you will deny God to lay on the altar for someone else. 

Only the Priest can give us Jesus, but it was a Deacon who gave us the first glimpse of what truly happens in the Mass.    

St. Stephen pray for us!

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The Mark

Every Catholic Priest that walks the Earth had a mark placed on him at his conception for the Priesthood.   This is a gift by God as a reflection for what God did for Mary in her womb, because every Priest is her son.  The Priest is not immaculate, but only marked as one chosen for the Priesthood.  This is not a guarantee that he will become a Priest, it is up to God whether or not he is called later.

I am sure that there are a few Priests walking the earth that were not called, although they are very few.  But the Priest, whether called or not will always carry this mark as being chosen to the Priesthood from conception.

Some of us are chosen to be the protector, parent and instructor of such children, and what you see is amazing.  How can you tell them what you know?  They don't understand why people, complete strangers want to engage him, talk to him, get to know him.  But I know.  Eternity truly is in our hearts, and somewhere deep inside, these people know that the young man they want so much to speak can provide them a path to heaven.  They don't understand how, but somewhere deep inside, they know.

I have also seen the look of hatred on a face looking at my son.  I knew what this was too.  There is a look of evil on the face of one that is either pure evil or possessed by the same that can not be duplicated in human form.  They hate him for what damage he could potentially do to them, but they are not allowed to touch him.

As always, I am curious.  "God why did you let me see that?"  Knowledge is always given for a reason.  I was made aware of the real danger that we both face, and by God's grace are protected from.  

This is not the first time I had encountered this either.  I met with a young sweet faced Deacon who was soon to be a Priest in the church at OLPH.  (Now Father Doug Marcotte at Sacred Heart, Jeffersonville, IN) I gave him a copy of the vision of the Eucharist, I'll never forget the smile on his face!  He talked about his journey to the Priesthood and how much he had to study, etc.  I told him, "Oh don't worry, you will be a Priest, it is imprinted on your soul."  (My Mother always said I told everything I knew...so what I know I will say.)

I also encountered another young man about my son's age, that has this gift from God.  I also gave him a copy of the picture of the Eucharist saying, "You know only a Priest can do that!"  (Hint, Hint!) But the most memorable was being with my son and for just a moment feeling the power of God come from his hands.  

Will my son be a Priest? I don't know, whatever path he takes is between him and God.   I love him no matter what he becomes.  Whether he is called or not, I am thankful to be be his Mother and pray that I teach and guide him well.  

Vision of Eucharist (Part I)

It's time.

This is what I saw.  The words underneath the vision of the Eucharist is what I heard.  A man's voice, gentle, but with authority to it that you did not question.

Now the history.

I was baptized a Catholic as an infant.  Although I went to Catholic School, I never did get my first communion or my confirmation.  (There were problems at home).  We had school Mass every Friday morning.  We didn't have a "blessing", if you hadn't had your first communion, you just sat there and watched everyone else go.  This was torture.  

After Catholic School, I would still go to Holy Mass, at St. Michael the Archangel Church, but I would never take Holy Communion.  Again, I would just sit there.  I can't tell you how bad I wanted to take Holy Communion.  I KNEW it was Jesus, and as a result I was also terrified of it also.  Although I saw other people take the Blessed Sacrament, I  got to a point that I gave up ever being able to receive Holy Communion.  I can't tell you how much I would hunger for what I thought I would NEVER HAVE.  

I still prayed the Rosary.  Marriage, years went by.  

One night I had a dream.  In the dream I went into a beautiful church, and when I walked in there was red carpet and pews to the left.  To the right was the Altar in this Church and the Holy Eucharist was hanging over the Altar.  The Eucharist was as BRIGHT AS THE SUN!!  Before the Altar, was a one person kneeler.  (Like the one below - red cloth and everything!) The only difference was the kneeler in my dream didn't have the top part where you place your elbows when you pray. 

I knew Jesus was standing next to me, to my right.  I wasn't permitted to turn and look at Him.  I heard Him say in my dream, "Kneel and receive Communion." 

I said to him, "But Lord, there is no Altar for me to kneel on." (I meant the top was gone from the kneeler).  

The Lord said to me, "I will become the Altar." And He laid across the posts and became the wood and the cloth and I knelt and received Holy Communion.  

When I woke up, I knew what I had to do, I knew He was calling me to get my First Communion.   But how? I didn't know there was anything like RCIA.  I loved the Priest at St. Michael the Archangel, but he had such a deep voice he kind of scared me.  I thought I would find another Catholic Church to get my Communion from.  I called St. Martha's Catholic Church and their RCIA was starting in a few weeks. (Go figure!) 

I had never been to St Martha's, never stepped in the door.  I signed up for RCIA and started going there for instruction.   The first time I stepped into the Sanctuary at St Martha's, my breath was taken away, and i cried.

It was the EXACT same Church as in my dream.

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More of this story coming in (Part 2).

The Seraphim

One day while I was on my way to Holy Mass, I saw my priest walking up his driveway.  I said a prayer for him and pleaded to the Holy Seraphim for him,that he would be protected.   I sought the highest level of angels for him because I was given how much a Priest is hated by the evil one.  If the demon was given the choice of any person whose life he could take on the earth, the first person he would pick would be a good and holy priest on the path to becoming a saint.   We do not understand the protection God gives us daily by His angels. 

For a moment I was no longer in my car, but I was close to these large beings that I knew where before the throne of God.  They are constantly before God, and there is no space or gap between them as they are before the Lord, they are like a constant wall surrounding the Throne.   I see why the prophet saw so many wings, because the light coming from them makes them look like multi-winged creatures.  I saw one of the Seraphim turn from God to look at me and hear my plea.  This astounded me, because nothing happens unless God allows it.  The Seraphim's job is to be before the Throne, giving glory and praise to God, but God in His goodness and love for us has not denied us even this highest of ranking angels, the ones that are His alone.  Even these angels that are solely God's He will not deny us.  The Seraphim that turned from the throne of God not because I am anything special, because I am a creature that will die, they will never die.  But God allowed this turning from His throne to hear my plea for my priest out of His love for us.  

How can one understand the depth of the love of God that will not deny a child created from dust the attention of his most beautiful and holy creatures that are for Him alone?  The Seraph could not have turned from God unless God had allowed it.  

I love Him so, but it is so little compared to how love God loves us. 

I was given to  understand that the Seraphim are the largest angels, if there is such a thing as size in the realm of eternity.  

Understand, what was given to me, was for my understanding only, it is the only way I could comprehend a concept that God was trying to show me.  I was shown that the Seraphim are big, like their feet would be on Pluto and their head would be at the sun.  Understand, this was only for my limited understanding, because God wished to give me a scale I understood so I could convey that the Seraphim are large.  But in the realm of eternity, where the Seraphim are, there are not such measurements and I can not fully understand the meaning of this "measurement" of an angel until I was myself in eternity. 

"So let us confidently approach the throne of grace to receive mercy and to find grace for timely help"  Hebrews 4:16

What Really Happens at the Holy Mass.

This is where I am happiest, at the Holy Mass.  Now I will tell you what really happens at Holy Mass.

The Lord told me some time ago, "I want you to go to Holy Mass everyday."  I thought, "O.k., I can do that."   At the time I was only going to Holy Mass once a week, an occasional day Mass but I mostly just prayed in front of the Blessed Sacrament.  I didn't understand, but I obeyed.  Going to Holy Mass everyday required some coordination, I would have to get up earlier and find a Mass along the way to work.  Also, the Mass would have to be close enough to work that when it was finished I could still get to work on time.  I found several different permanent options, and a few back up plans if for some reason I couldn't get to my regular daily Mass.

It took about a year of going to Holy Mass daily, but then things started to change.  This was no longer an obligation, but a joy!   God started to open my eyes to what was really going on in the Holy Mass.  I was astonished at what I learned.  

• The Holy Mass is the greatest event that ever happens on the earth.
• The Holy Mass is the greatest victory on the earth.
• Without the Holy Mass the world would cease to exist.
• The Holy Mass is where the love of God and Earth meet, or literally Heaven on Earth. 
• During the Holy Mass the love of God comes down in sheets! (I feel it!) 
• Each Holy Mass offered has some benefit for every person still living on the Earth.  Not just Catholics, but all.  The amount of this benefit is according to the grace and mercy of God and known only to Him.
• The Holy Mass is a great benefit to the souls in purgatory, and releases many souls.
• The Holy Mass received with reverence gives us a love for things that are Holy and of God.
• The Holy Sacrifice of the Mass offered to God defers a right and just judgement against us that we would have otherwise suffered, and has done so since the Last Supper. 

  

Now, think what a Priest really is.  A Priest, is not just for Catholics, but by God's grace, he is a Priest for the whole world and the Holy Mass and the Blessed Sacrament is God's house of light, calling all to Him.  May he never shun lightly offering this gift to God which only he can do for us. 

A Priest offering the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass to God stands between all of us and the fires of Hell, which we all have deserved at one point in time by our sins.   The things that help us avoid hell, are the Confessional, the Holy Mass and Blessed Sacrament.  This is not forced, but only offered to us as a gift.  (How I wish more would take advantage of these most precious gifts for the sake of the judgement that all must face!) 

If you truly understood what the Holy Mass truly is, you would RUN to confession, and want to do what is right before God so that you can receive well that which is most Holy.  The Holy Mass and most Blessed Sacrament ARE NOT YOUR RIGHT...they are God's gift and should be treated with an eternal gratitude.  If you knew what was in a Catholic Church and what was really happening at a Holy Mass, you would enter Church on your knees, with contrition of heart.

Go to Holy Mass daily!